Iwantamanitis (look it up)

It's been a while since I've written on this blog. Blogs do evolve don't they. I started off saying that I would write here once a day, but that's a tough order to adhere to considering many different variables. It's not that I didn't have anything to say but rather, sometimes when there's much to say, it is better to say nothing and ponder thoughts carefully, which is precisely what I've done. Spring fever is in the air, and I've caught a whiff of it. I suddenly caught a case of the Iwantamanitis. Terrible thing, that itis. Gets you in a pure ruckus to the point where you start to wonder if you are indeed sane. I dismissed the sickness as a passing phase but then when I looked at my actions I realized that I needed to explore the Iwantamanitis if I wanted to tame it and not become a disciple to it (that would be a tragedy). So instead of searching for an outward answer to my itis, I looked inside and realized through trial and error that I am at that stage of real, sincere, and honest growth. Instead of dismissing the itis I chose to acknowledge my own humanity. If life is truly about our relationships with one another, then perhaps I would be remiss not to openly admit that I would love to meet someone amazing. The desire is there, the want is there, and my mind, body, and spirit is acknowledging that. The moral of the story is this... when you feel this way, sometimes its better to do nothing but go inward and explore. When we go outside search of quick answers we usually find ultimately painful ends. I might be in the midst of iwantamanitis, but I am firmly, deeply rooted in my resolve to do nothing outside of looking inward.