Doctor, I Need a Prescription for my Broken Heart.

I don't have heterophobia (fear of the opposite sex).  That is not the reason I chose to remain single for the year.  Rather, I am hopeful for the future and spending time enjoying myself.  So many of us lie in a frenzied state of hedonism and instant gratification until we fail to realize that delayed pleasure is exactly what we need.  Sacrifice.  Hard work.  Spiritual transcendence.  Climbing the ladder.  Finding joy in the simplicities of Mother Nature.  How can we give someone else us, if we have no clue who us is...?  Because we hurry to exist, to conquer, to claim, to gather wealth and resources, we don't pay attention to the world around us and we don't pay attention to our inner self.  Because we don't pay attention to the world around us, we are oblivious to the natural forces and influences that could potentially bring us into balance.  Without balance we give rise to psychological disorders, physical maladies, and phobias such as "Gerascophobia" - Fear of Growing Old and "Epistemophobia" - fear of knowledge.  There is a disease for every malady under the sun and, along with that fallacy, there is a drug to treat these diseases.  Therefore when I talk to someone I wonder:  Am I talking to you or am I talking to you the drugs you took today?  When we fail to address our inner person, we end up in bind after bind after bind with no end in sight.  The day from hell turns into the month of hell and then on December 31, you may soon sit back and make resolutions to do better, without addressing the fact that you yourself are the cause of your calamities.  To be a change agent we must first stop changing schedules and then start doing the long-term inner work that that brings about new, fresh, unbeaten, meaningful paths.   

My first semester of coursework for my upcoming Master's degree in Counseling Psychology, I was introduced to an interesting concept.  My professor said that Personality Disorders were the hardest of the psychological disorders to treat.  It seems that personality is unchangeable and firmly rooted, so much so that treating destructive functions of personality yields very few positive results.  But I argue in this case that the fleeting part of treating Personality Disorders is that people don't want to change.  They would rather stay just as they are.  We spend millions of dollars each year on Self-Help books.  We spend millions of dollars in plastic surgery and cosmetic improvements.  We spend millions of dollars on weight-loss schemes.  Yet we can't spend ONE SECOND with ourselves.  Doesn't cost you a dime.  I've come to realize that many people can't stand themselves.  They are busy, frenzied, competitive, and harried because otherwise they would end it all.  But I do not want to end this post on a sour note, albeit a realistic one.   

Phobias aside for the minute - When we begin to look inward, we find the tools to get out of our own way and begin to truly advance towards our destiny.   It doesn't cost much.  You don't have to go get a prescription filled or go under the knife for positive results and feedback.  Most of us are outsiders within our bodies, minds, and spirits.  Step inside.  It's warm.  And after a while of work and wonder, love will be there.  That's my guarantee.